En dag i Paradiset
Ni andra "stridslystna" ute i världen, hur orkar ni brâka? Senaste tiden har det för min del varit brâk varenda jäkla dag, och jag klarar det inte. Jag krymper. Jag orkar inte! Jag mâr sâ jävla dâligt när det är sâhär att jag bara vill lägga mig ner och tjuta. Helt jävla nervvrak, skakig som jag vet inte vad. Jag kan ju inte ens diskutera normalt, jag har svârt att formulera mig o dâ blir jag frustrerad o tack vare det sâ börjar târarna svida i ögonen, och de är ohejdbara. Jag vet fan inte hur man beter sig som normal.
I övrigt mâr jag sämre än vanligt, har sâ sjukt ont i kroppen, och det tar sâ jävla mycket energi och tâlamod. Handleden är inflammerar som fasen, som spritt sig till fingrar. Rygg slutet ömmar sâ förgrymmat, târna smärtar, och sâ lite migrän pâ det. Jag orkar inte.
Började grâta förut när jag var i stallet. Stod inne i Itzas box, och hon märkte och förstod uppenbarligen att jag var ledsen / inte mâdde bra. Vad jag grundar det pâ är att hon slickade mig i ansiktet upprepade gânger, och sedan började försiktigt "buffla" pâ mig ( Alltsâ inte sâ hârt och okontrollerat som hon vanligen gör.) sedan efter ett tag sâ la hon mulen försiktigt mot min axel tills jag lugnade ner mig. Hon är den som gör mig hel.
Jag orkar inte!
Bored...
Still, no riding... its killing me.......!
Yesterday we where on IKEA, and shopped an awful lot of things. But most of the things we really needed, so guess it was nessecary ;)
Also went to the little "food-store" on ikea, and bought some "knäckebröd", "Lingonsylt (<3), "vaniljsâs", and Havreflan. Yumyum! 5 cookies of around 30 left today hmmm... yep, yumyum! :)
For the rest there is just boring, normal work... Day in and day out. So yep, im bored..
Now im sitting waiting for the roof guy to leave so i can take a shower and go to bed, but im afraid i can wait for a looong time, since they are drinking beer....................................
Quiet!
There has been pretty quiet now from my side.. Well thats just because of the fact that its not happening anything for the moment in my otherwise so busy life...The snow and minus degrees is preventing me from riding and its still getting me crazy... Even my boyfriend has noticed a slight temper change in me... Nothing uncommon though..
Well, it seems like the degrees will go up again next week, and i do really hope so! All the horses are as bored as me, so its about time for the snow to disappear now :)
This is just a short one again, but yeah, when there is nothing to write about, then im not gonna write about some bullshit just because :p
So hang in there, it will get more again but not for the moment :)
Snow,snow, SNOW!
Okey, i must tell you one thing! Im getting crazy! I have not neen riding for hmm 3 days, and its killing me! The goddamned snow is making it difficult right now! We dont have an indoor, so the paddock is frozen, and now with snow on it, so the horses has a rest -.-
I want to get started with them all, and prepair them for a possible competition season! And of course i just want to ride, because i love it, and it clears my mind so nicely.
Well, too let myself smell a bit more horse anyway, im mugging out more boxes (To be nice to the others.) , Trimmed Itzas mane yesterday, cleaning her in general, and of course an awful lot of extra cuddling ;)
I have also not been cleaning my tack for soon 2 weeks, and i feel a bit ashamed.. Its dirty, and would need a good rubbing with the grease, but since we dont have any warm water what so ever in the stable, im not that satecfied with putting my hands in that ice cold water... Well, better toughen up, it has to be done.
Something that i should do, is clean off my boots, and go to the shoemaker, and see if he can fix them... They now have a nice hole on the inside of the leg...Would be nice to be able to use them a bit longer, since i like them very much.
I have heard rumers about that its gonna be like this in the weather, next week aswell... Poor me, and poor horses! Itza has the luck anyway of being outside every day, since thats in my eyes the most right thing to do. But the other horses in the stable, is only standing in their boxes.. Im not looking forward to go up on some of them, the first time after this... They are allready ticking bombs...
Another day in paradise!
Another day is passed. Have not been doing anything but stressing today i think =( Came up to late from bed, had to stress to work, but since it has come 5 cm of powder snow tonight, people found it reasonable to drive in 20 km/h on 90 roads -.- after first client, hurry to next one, and then go to lier and leave work papers, and get new ones, and then shopping food. Then home, unpack food, eat, go to itza. Now im finally here, tired as hell so im soon gonna go to bed.
Walitzas breeder is sending me some pictures of my lovely Walitza, from when she was 1.5 years old. Younger pictures is on its way, but needs to be scanned in first so it will still take a while.
Here is one of them! Enjoy, and good night!
Picture bomb!
Just have been saving some pics from my phone, so the quality aint too good but some pictures are nice anyway! Here they come!
Walitza today, in the mudd and sun!
Itza in her new pyjamas and new collar!
The young lads!
Again, Good night!
Lazy saturday!
Yesterday evening it started freezing here in Belgium. And with freezing comes the fact that the paddock gets frozen... Normally today i should have been riding 2 horses, and lunging Itza, but since it is frozen, no such things occured. I Went to the stable and did Itzas box and so on, and gave her an apple wich the got very happy for.
Frank and Mathias was salting the paddock today, so hopefully if will get soft and ridable again, maybe allready tomorrow! Then problem is solved. The only thing is that i really dont like salted paddocks. It is really not good for the horses legs and hoofs! And my beauty Walitza has finally gotten cured from shitty "mokk/Mok" (Mugg in swedish), but im a bit afraid that the salt will bring it back. And also, she has really dry hoofs, and that will for sure not get better by salt. But i guess i should be happy if the paddock is ridable. I just have to be sure to wash the legs good after every riding pass.
For the rest i have just been home today, not doing much at all! My love went to a gig tonight, but i really didnt feel like going today, and staying up late. Have been soooo tired lately that i just want to get as much rest as possible. Dont know if its thanks to all the medicines, or if its just the darkness that surrounds us all in winter time. Maybe it is both.
So not much more will occur today, think i will put on a movie and then just go to sleep and wake up happy and fresh in the morning!
Nightynight!
He is catching up!!
Im the only one riding Boogie boy, for i dont know how long now, so it feels good to be able to take all credit. Boogaloo is cathing up with Itza in education level! Feels real fun! He is a super fun pony to ride, and i just wish he was about 10cm bigger!
I have started many "projects" with him, like shoulder in (Trott and canter), nagging a bit on the "shoulder out"/half pass, have started with the beginnings of canter pirouettes, training walking pirouettes... Well you name it.
The thing with him is that you need to train different things every time you ride, otherwise he will find it boring, and think "that he allready knows this", and then it goes less good, so thats why i have started with so many things at the same time. To be able to do different things every time, but still the same, without him noticing it.
Im really hoping that he wont get sold before spring/summer, because then we have some plans on starting some dressage competitions. Of course, if Itza then still is feeling good, she will also be started.
Just holding my thumbs :)
Just another monday.
So, here we are again, Monday, many days left until weekend.
Today i worked till 13.00, and now within 30 min im off to the stable, to take care of Itza (Hopefully she is better so i can start to work her again.) And also have a couple of horses to do.
Yesterday was the day with the big D! Now we have a Kitchen ( Still with a shower in it ;D ) , a Livingroom!!, a hallway, and a bedroom! It feels a bit weird to be living this "big" to be honest. You got used to live so small, with sooo much stuff, that now when there is possibility to move, it feels real huge!
But i think we where finished around 21.00 yesterday, (Still have some small things to do but yeah) and i think we started around 16.30 or so to clean up. There was an awfull lot of dust, spiders+web, and so on and so on. Took me a while so to say.
But it feels great. First night in the bedroom and i slept shit though... Guess because of new place, new sounds, and light from the road ( since we dont have anything to cover the windows with yet.) And also, you have to walk to the other side of the house to take a pee, so then you are fully awake when you arrive back to bed... Just get used to it ;)
So now continue with my day!
The drug that all humans are addicted to : Money.
Have been thinking quite alot about it during work today, and is it not crazy how money can make people totally change, give mood swings, make us humans act totally weird?
I meen for examlpe, like them crazy hollywood bitches, who are around 40+ but acts like 15? And makes so much surgery to their bodys just to look younger, but they just look like aliens...
Just because they can, and getting older is their biggest fear, they will spend so much money on it that us "regular people" could only dream about.
And then on the other side of the cake: People who dont have enough instead... Ive seen it happen, that persons totally changes their personallity, temper and moods when its starts being tough.
We get into fights and arguments easily just because of money problem.
We spend our whole life to get money, money that we at the same time spend meanwhile.
Is it really the mening of life, to work our asses of for the rest of our life?
There is of course those who has is even worse, who cant afford to have food on the table, but thats not what i want to light up here.
What i meen is just, when you live in the "middle" not too poor, but still, you dont have enough to do what you want, what you need. Is it then we who have too high standards for our lives, or is it that we dont work enough? Dont earn enough?
Hmm, alot of thoughts run trough my head about this subject but wont make it too long.
It just amazes me, how it came to being addicted to money..
Just another day.
Today it was back to work. Im still not feeling good in my body since New years eve. Really alot of pain, and awfully tired. And i was sober, so its not any hungover-shit... Hmm... Better call my doctor soon and make an appointment, maybe a bit earlier than february...
For the rest, today has been ok, actually caught some sun, wich is not that common in cloudy, rainy Belgium. Worked to 12, went home and made some food and other "dutys" and then i went to the stable. Had Bilenka and Boogaloo to work today for Frank, and they were both nice. Boogaloo starts being super! Bilenka still needs more power, she goes long and low, but gets a bit "hanging" in the hand, but its all about getting the strenght in her, but with her you have to "hurry slowly". She is now 5, but doesnt know much more than a 3-4 year old. She has been way too weak, and growing too much, so she has spent almost the whole 2012 in the field, just building up naturally.
I also lunged Itza, first time after 1.5 weeks rest.. Lets say that she was Fresh.... Bucking, kicking, running, but in the end nice and easy, so tomorrow i will jogg her a bit. And im looking forward to it :) My little Mudd Monster..
Today for the rest im just gonna take a shower and go to bed. Tiredness is extremely high for the moment so better try to get some rest and hope for more energy tomorrow, but i guess that is just wishing... Its worth a try anyway.
Good night, folks!
