Inget vidare pâ att uppdatera...
Just nu är det mycket som pâgâr, operationstid för mina bihâlor bland annat är bokad, vi hâller pâ att rida in unghingstarna, Joren startar eget, mycket tankar, mycket jobb osv osv.
Därför blir bloggen lite utanför för tillfället men det fâr ni som faktist läser den ibland ha lite överseende med..
Itza gâr numera ute, tillsammans med det 22 âriga avelsstoet Caline, och den söta lille jäkliga welsh ponnyn Pistache. Hon verkar tycka det är rätt gött, även fast Caline är brunstig och tror att Itza är en pojke...
Inatt var första natten som hon fick sova ute, och med tanke pâ att det regnar varenda jäkla dag, och inte mer än 15 grader som max, sâ känner jag mig lite elak.. Men hon mâste vänja sig, för hon kommer numera fâ sova ute hela sommaren.
Snart ska jag iväg och trotsa regnet, och rida Balisto, och fortsätta med pojkarna. Elcado, min favorit, är jättesnäll, kunde gâ upp samma dag som vi började hänga pâ honom, och skrittade och travade pâ lina! 2a gângen kunde jag även fâ till ett par varv i galopp ât bâda hâll!
Excellcior är en annan historia.. Hade jag inte sett att bâda kulorna hänger där mellan benen, sâ hade jag trott att han är en klapphingst, riktigt fult beteende, och ingen som helst respekt för människan. Första gângen sâ gick det knappt att hänga pâ honom. 2a gângen sâ gav vi honom aaaningens lugnande ( O jaa, vissa av er tycker säkert att det är fel, men det var bara en sân liten mängd att han blev lugn, inte dödstrött. Utan var fortfarande där i medvetandet.) och dâ kunde jag hänga pâ honom, men vi fâr ta det lugnt sâ att det inte händer nâgot, vare sig med mig, dem pâ marken eller honom.
Esquiro den rädde, har enbart haft sadel med stigbyglar pâ sig en gâng än sâ länge, sâ där fâr vi gâ mer lângsamt sâ att han inte ballar ur. Det blir nog livligt första gângen som jag mâste upp där.
Och nästa helg, söndag, sâ är det âter igen tävlingsdags för mig och hingsten Boogaloo!
Once again, long time ago...
Now i have been real crappy at updating here, its not easy to get the time for it!
Alot has been going on, alot of doctors appointments and so on, and now its discussing about that i might need surgery, again, but this time for my sinuses. Many of them are totally blocked, some has signs of chronical sinusitis and shit like that. My health is just a never ending shit story.
I dont know anymore if i told you about the competition last weekend? It went good anyway, and we saw what we wanted. Boogaloo became a stallion, in a good way.
For the rest there is work work work on the schedule.
On thursday this week Joren and i took a break in this busy life we are having, and went to a private sauna / Spa :) It was nice, ok the place itself could have been a bit better, but it was still good, and it was nice to have some time with eachother for once :)
Today, we have been to a fleamarket, and Joren found quite some stuff. I only made our cactus collection bigger by buying 2 more ;)
Well, in general this has been a pretty slow day, but we both needed it :)
Nere o gräver mig en grop
Alltsâ, jag vet inte vad det är med mig just nu, men jag känner mig väldigt nere. Och kan inte luska ut exakt varför. Det finns mycket som tynger mig, vilket ni borde veta nu, men denna deppighet slog mig väldigt hârt idag.
Det är bara sâ mycket som pâgar just nu, som t.ex en jävla massa läkarbesök... Mâr verkligen inte sâ bra, har haft jätteont i magen sen i söndags, med en knöl!! under naveln. Det gör nu aningens mindre ont, men fick ju panik, en knöl bara sâdär, o det nâgot sâdant tar man ju inte o viftar bort som ingenting... Har gjort echografi och de hittade NADA, o hur frustrerande är inte det? Hus doktorn kände ocksâ knölen, o därför sände han mig dit, men ingenting sâg de pâ echon, varken muskulärt eller att det skulle vara i tarmarna...
Dessutom sâ har jag gjort en CT-scanning pâ bihâlor, dâ jag har sâ mycket problem med just bihâlor och tryckande huvudvärk... Dock vet jag ingenting därifrân än, fâr reda pâ det nästa torsdag....
Jag vill verkligen bara ha en liten paus frân allt det här... Ha en period där jag faktist mâr Bra!
Att jag sedan har mycket o tänka pâ vad det gäller hästen o annat, det gör det ju inte bättre..
Antar att det är en mix av alltihop som gör mig depp, det blir bara en enda stor sörja av allt, och det är sâ svârt att hâlla sig positiv ens i huvudet... Jag skulle behöva en paus ifrân alla jävla bekymmer, o bara fâ vara!
Livet leker...
Jaha, just nu känner jag inte för att skriva pâ engelska, men har inte fâtt nâgra klagomâl sâ dâ fortsätter jag pâ svenska.
Just nu vill inte min kropp som jag vill. Sâ det är inte bara kusens kropp som strular, utan min ocksâ. Sân fruktansvärd smärta, framförallt i axlar, skuldror och armar. Men även fingerleder och liknande jävlas.
Tack vare det sâ fick jag avböja den sista hästen idag, o det tycker jag inte om.
Tur nog sâ är det torsdag imorrn, och det är normalt min "häst-jobb-fria-dag" men jag har sagt att jag kan rida imorrn istället dâ. Och vi ska även börja jobba de tre 3 âriga hingstarna imorrn lite smâtt för att förbereda dom för inridning. Ska bli kul!
I övrigt idag har dagen varit helt ok. Började senare idag pga att jag behövde âka till sjukan för en "check up" efter operationen, men allt var bra och ärren läker fint sâ det var typ bara in och ut. De hade även spanat pâ blindtarmen i mikroskop osv och det var inget annat som sâg galet ut än vad de visste redan, sâ det var ju skönt.
Dessutom sâ mâste jag bara säga, att jag är nöjd över mig själv. Jag har inte haft en enda städkund som inte varit väldigt nöjda med mig. Idag hade jag en ersättnings kund dâ min normala kund är bortrest, och jag fick höra att jag var guld värd, att jag gjorde ett super bra jobb och att deras vanliga städtant har ett och annat att lära sig frân mig.
Jag hör sâ ofta frân kunder om deras föregâende städare att dom inte dyker upp, gör ett halv dant jobb osv, men jag förstâr inte det! Ok, städning är väl inte det mest glamourösa jobbet man kan ha, och inte alltid det mest upp piggande, men vafan, det är ju ett jobb som alla andra! Gör man ett bra och effektivt jobb sâ strâlar det alltid pâ ett eller annat sätt tillbaka pâ dig själv! Dessutom sâ är de flesta kunderna väldigt rara och trevliga sâ man träffar ju faktist mycket folk ocksâ.
Och nu en liten sidnot, för er som undrar, Walitza fortsätter att vara väldigt stel. Idag var det väl aningens bättre mot slutet, men jaa... När jag suttit upp sâ skrittar hon hastigt ett varv, sen skulle hon hellre ställa sig o bara stâ. När vi väl börjar jobba, sâ är det jobbigt som tusan, tills jag tvingar igenom henne o gör allt jag kan för att fâ loss henne, och som sagt, det blir bättre mot slutet, men jag skulle vilja se en förbättring dagen efter, men den verkar inte komma! Väldigt frustrerande faktist... Min lilla pärla...
Tiredness...
Oh, im tired! I can really feel that i have not been riding that much lately! Today i rode Bilenka and Boogaloo, and ok, Bo is never any problem, he is shaped after me now since im the only one riding, plus that he is a pony.
But Bilenka, is around 170-175cm high, and very heavy in the hand, and today also very stiff, since she has not been worked for a while that much.
They where both nice in general after some work to get them lose.
With Bo it was a bit contra canter, Canter <----> Walk transmissons, and they are starting to work just fine.
Bilenka was sidewalks and tempo changes on the schedule, since she is not that good on any of them.
Walitza was only lunged today, and i dont know what has happened with her, because its almost not possible to let her canter on the lunge anymore, its high bucks, racing and shit like that, but yeah, then its something to work on he..
For the rest not much has happened, yesterday i held some lessons which both went good.
Tonight wont happen much more i think, Joren is in Holland to pick up a new motorcycle that he bought, and i guess i will head for the shower and watch some tv until its sleeping time.
Have a nice evening!
Still alive, yep, still!
Okey, now last period of time has been pretty shitty.
Last 1.5 weeks i have been feeling not so good in general, sinus problems, muscular pain, joint pain and so on and so on. But last friday evening, i started having bad pain in my stomach. Felt really blown up, and cramps at the same time. Ignored it, since i have a pretty difficult stomach normally, and went to bed.
The day after, it got worse, and i could not lift my legs without that it hurted extremely, and also in general i felt tired, and a bit weird or how to put it. If i could have chosen i would have stayed in the sofa for the rest of the day, hoping for it to get over. Joren though, decided that we should go to emergency, and i guess that was good, because the same day, i got operated for a inflamated appendix!
They put my hope up by saying that i could normally go home the day after, but since i had to get antibiotics and so on, i had to stay one more day.
Must say that the days in a hospital goes veeeery slow!
On monday i could go home, and here i am!
Im not having that much pain, but my energy is lacking a bit, but it comes graduatly back. Hoping that i will be fully ok on friday when my mother and sister finally is coming to Belgium for the first time!
So, since i came home from the hospital i have taken it a bit slow, and started to clean, i do after all want it to be properly clean here when they come :)
For the rest, i visited Itza yesterday for the first time since friday, and i have missed her. Today i have not been there, have been pretty tired, plus that i needed to go shopping, and clean a bit. But tomorrow im planning to go there and spend some time with her.
Now its time to watch a movie and be slow for the rest of the evening.
Lovely spring!
Right now is really not the best period in my life. My body seems to get worse, more painful. And i get more and more other problems, like the big things inside my nose, wich dont disappear, my throat hurts as hell, and my voice is almost gone, and my eyes are red and itchy... So tomorrow im off to a nose-throat-ear doctor to go down with a camera again, too see how it is in there..
The only thing that keeps me very positive right now is the lovely weather! Since 3 days ago, the spring came here! It is at least 15 degrees, think even up to 20 in the sun. Real lovely! So Itza has been outside a bit during day without blanket, and she just loves it. But you do notice that the quick weather change takes some power from the horses, they are quickly tired and not as willing to work. But it will come, the spring has just knocked them down a bit. They will get back up toghether with the spring flowers and early grass ;)
And btw, Here is the things i bought at the Flanders horse expo!
Im still alive...
So, what's new?
Yesterday me and my boyfriend went to "Flanders horse expo" in gent, and it was nice, but had hoped it had been a bit better organized. It started with dressage for 4 hours, and of course that was what i wanted to see the most, but Joren got pretty bored. So During the dressage we was watching a bit, and then looking around a bit and then a bit watching again, and that was totally fine by me.
After the dressage it was Horseball, and that i think was a bit more interesting in Jorens eyes, a bit more speed and action than the dressage.
We also saw indoor race with 4 horse+wagon. That is something i really love to watch!
The last thing we actually watched was the Reining clinic, with Anky van Grunsven, and i must say that it felt a bit weird to see her in western clothes.
For the rest i found myself a new pair of riding pants and a new Saddleblanket for my horse ;) Was about to buy the yellow one that i aaaaalways want to buy, but amazingly enough i bought a military green one, with Orange edge details! Really nice =)
The only thing is, when im at places like that, i get a bit too caught up in everything, and i forget to eat. So i was suuuperdizzy yesterday and had to drive home from gent in a lot of traffic! Did not make me happy.
Today im home sick! Vomited this morning, but i think it has to do with yesterdays eating habbits, and i also have a really bad cold with painful throat :( So im possitioned in the sofa with a big cup of tea, and a blanket wrapped around me. Hope im feeling a bit better later on, because i do want to ride!!!
For the rest, Itza is in heat/ having her period, and she and Boogieboy are toootally in love! I would soooo like to let them meet, and get a little one, because im sure it would be a pretty perfect pony combo! But now is not the right time as always..
Now im gonna take it a bit more easy and make sure to feel better.
crap
Sometimes i just wonder what i have done to deserve my life! With that i dont meen my life in general, what i meen is my health, my body, my head!!
Dont feel so good right now, and im sooo tired of not feeling good. I want to be a normal, happy healthy person!
Dont want no fucking medications, want to have a body that works anyway!!
It sometimes feels so dark, i meen, im 21, soon 22 years, i should be in my best period of life! But if this is my body on "the top", then i dont want to know how it will be in a couple of years.
En dag i Paradiset
Ni andra "stridslystna" ute i världen, hur orkar ni brâka? Senaste tiden har det för min del varit brâk varenda jäkla dag, och jag klarar det inte. Jag krymper. Jag orkar inte! Jag mâr sâ jävla dâligt när det är sâhär att jag bara vill lägga mig ner och tjuta. Helt jävla nervvrak, skakig som jag vet inte vad. Jag kan ju inte ens diskutera normalt, jag har svârt att formulera mig o dâ blir jag frustrerad o tack vare det sâ börjar târarna svida i ögonen, och de är ohejdbara. Jag vet fan inte hur man beter sig som normal.
I övrigt mâr jag sämre än vanligt, har sâ sjukt ont i kroppen, och det tar sâ jävla mycket energi och tâlamod. Handleden är inflammerar som fasen, som spritt sig till fingrar. Rygg slutet ömmar sâ förgrymmat, târna smärtar, och sâ lite migrän pâ det. Jag orkar inte.
Började grâta förut när jag var i stallet. Stod inne i Itzas box, och hon märkte och förstod uppenbarligen att jag var ledsen / inte mâdde bra. Vad jag grundar det pâ är att hon slickade mig i ansiktet upprepade gânger, och sedan började försiktigt "buffla" pâ mig ( Alltsâ inte sâ hârt och okontrollerat som hon vanligen gör.) sedan efter ett tag sâ la hon mulen försiktigt mot min axel tills jag lugnade ner mig. Hon är den som gör mig hel.
Jag orkar inte!
Just another day.
Today it was back to work. Im still not feeling good in my body since New years eve. Really alot of pain, and awfully tired. And i was sober, so its not any hungover-shit... Hmm... Better call my doctor soon and make an appointment, maybe a bit earlier than february...
For the rest, today has been ok, actually caught some sun, wich is not that common in cloudy, rainy Belgium. Worked to 12, went home and made some food and other "dutys" and then i went to the stable. Had Bilenka and Boogaloo to work today for Frank, and they were both nice. Boogaloo starts being super! Bilenka still needs more power, she goes long and low, but gets a bit "hanging" in the hand, but its all about getting the strenght in her, but with her you have to "hurry slowly". She is now 5, but doesnt know much more than a 3-4 year old. She has been way too weak, and growing too much, so she has spent almost the whole 2012 in the field, just building up naturally.
I also lunged Itza, first time after 1.5 weeks rest.. Lets say that she was Fresh.... Bucking, kicking, running, but in the end nice and easy, so tomorrow i will jogg her a bit. And im looking forward to it :) My little Mudd Monster..
Today for the rest im just gonna take a shower and go to bed. Tiredness is extremely high for the moment so better try to get some rest and hope for more energy tomorrow, but i guess that is just wishing... Its worth a try anyway.
Good night, folks!
Note for the next doctors appointment.
Now im back in Belgium, and it feels nice, even though i allready miss my family and friends. Have been nice to come home, and cuddle a bit with my love, and also go to my horse and see how she was doing.
In this "update" i will write a note, more for me, to remember in february. I have been sitting writing this shit up on post-its, but i know they will disapear, so im gonna write it here, where it will stay as long as im not deleting it. It will be honest and pure.
My "side effects"
- Lack of libido.
- Extreme lust for eating crap as candy and other sweet things.
- Headache ( Wich is not disapearing with pills, stays the whole day, and sometimes i wake up the day after with it aswell.
- Tiredness (Bit more than before)
- Heart rush.
- Sweating more.
Other things to also talk about with Mr doctor
- Shakey..
- Spasms!
- Cramps!
Medications at the moment:
- Redomex
- Tradozone
- Magnecaps
- D-cure
That was about it, but im feeling that there has to be some changes in pills, because this aint to fun. And actually im not feeling any "progress" with the pain, its the same, sometimes even more. Well well, lets see what it gives in february..
Just another tuesday.
Well,well... Now its not long time left until im off for sweden :) Im really looking forward to it!
Today it has been freezing, so no riding on Itza, no riding at all actually, because of the fact that we dont have the luxury of a indoor. And was supposed to ride 3 horses and hold 1-2 lessons today, but everything got cancelled, the ground was too hard. I wish it was gonna freeze now for 2-3 weeks, and then no more... Then i can give itza her winter rest now, and then start again nice and fresh next year.. But probably its gonna freeze now for a few days, then 1-2 days on + and then freeze again and so on... Dont like it at all!
Itza is really deserving a winter rest, since she has been so incredible nice lately. Think she is feeling just super right now, and nothing is really any problem. A bit worried though, that if she stands still, that she gets stiff, and the problems starts again, but i dont know.. Think that as long as she is not standing inside the box all day long, that she is outside more or less the whole day, that it will be just good and nice for her.. I Hope..
Well, except for that i dont get money, i feel that it was nice to not ride today actually. It feels a bit like im about to get a cold or so.. Or its just the normal shit, that my muscles are messing with me.. Im very stiff in the lower back, and in my thies. When i have been riding 4-5 horses, i allways have pain in the back later. But yeah, thats how it is i guess, specially when its cold... Even though i have alot of "layers" of clothes, they get sweaty after a while and then the back gets cold anyway...
Would really like to take a warm bath right now, but yeah, we dont have a bath just yet.....
So now, i dont know, do the dishes or so? hahaha im not used to be home this early and be finished with everything... But yeah :p
Doktorn doktorn doktorn...
Japp, idag var det tid hos doktorn igen... Fylla pâ mina recept osv... Diskuterat en massa, dâ jag har en hel del krângel i kroppen... Nu ska vi testa pâ o ändra p-piller av nâgra anledningar, o blir det inte bättre, sâ ska jag nog byta ut redomexen, dâ den är en liten jävul som ställer till det extra mycket när jag inte vill alls...
Vi fâr se... Nu har jag iaf tabletter sâ jag klarar mig över jul osv.. Eller ja, behöver fortfarande hämta ut mer magnesium och d-vitamin men har fortfarande lite sâ väntar ett tag till..
Läkaren avrâdde mig frân att börja jobba nu ocksâ, "Det tar minst 6 veckor innan en fraktur är läkt", sâ nu gav hon mig en vecka till, efter det skiter jag i vad hon säger o jobbar iaf, dâ det bara är 4 dagar o sen âker jag till sverige....
Âter igen har hon remitterat mig till en fysioterapeut, men jag fâr ju aldrig arslet ur vagnen till o dra dit sâ det är ju inge bra...Men fâr väl se till o göra det nu denna vecka, iaf för första gângen....
Menmen.... Undrar fortfarande var mitt paket har tagit vägen... Mâste ju kommit bort nâgonstans eller sâ? Brukar ju inte ta mer än ett par dagar för ett Brev/tjockt brev/Litet paket att komma hit?? Visst kan det ju vara sâ att postflyg osv blivit inställt osvosv men ändâ! Det är över en vecka sedan det skickades o det tycker jag är lustigt!! Meenmen, o inte nog med att jag väntar pâ det paketet, pojkvännens bror skulle beställa kläder o vi bad honom beställa vârat pâ samma gâng, men självklart sâ glömmer han o beställa mina grejer? AA MEN KUL DÂ!!!!!!!!!! :(
Nu ska jag dra mig till stjärnan. Jag slutar aaaaaldrig att förundras över kapaciteten i min lilla arabiska fullblodsponny!! Igâr pâbörjade vi Passage! Sââââââ duktig!
Buueeh.. Bad weather :(
Today is one of them days when everything is heavy to do. It was the first day of work for me, since i broke the finger. But now, since 1-2 days ago, the finger start swelling, being warm and hurting again :S Not nice at all, guess if it doesnt get better again i must call the doctor. Maybe started work to early? ^^, hehe dont know, but both stable, and cleaning is hard for the hands so... And when im riding i have a tendency to hit my finger (Wich im still keeping straight) on the saddle or so, and that hurts as hell. Well well, money need to come in he...
So today in the afternoon / Evening im off to the stable, probably to ride Bo, and of course itza :) But it just started raining, and at the same time its pretty cold so im not that tempted to go for the moment... Also, cold makes my finger even more hurtful.
Oh, on monday one horse is leaving, so then i can breath out a bit. Its allways so much stress with the papers, the transport, vet check this and that and 100 phonecalls here and there. But yeah, i do hope a nice future together with the horse :)
Since im allready "complaining" here, i can also better write that i have a lot pain in my body right now. Just pure pain, cramps, "stabbs" and so on. Not so happy about it. And a lot of head ache, especially in the late afternoons / Early evenings. Baah....
Wellwell, boring update, i know. But at least its an uppdate! ;)
Toodiluu!
Up and Down, just like a rollercoaster!
My body is seriously not ok right now, and that my dear friends, makes me an emotional idiot.
Since i broke my finger i have started with more medicines. And what is medications for? To make you feel better, right? Well, it aint the case.
My finger is ok, the only shit is that im not allowed to use it too much yet and that makes me crazy, but that you allready know. The pills for the pain, wich i only take when i really need it, since im not a big fan of pills, makes my stomach go wild. Im not hungry but still it screams, bubbles, hurts, "Magkatarr" in swedish...
The pills for sleeping, makes me "lose my tonge", makes me a bit "dislocated" sometimes, and also, i get a breeze of memory loss, mostly from the evening before when i have been taking the pill allready, but also if i wake up in the morning, goes up to the toilette, speakes with Joren before he leaves... Dont remember.
And then there is also one problem, wich im not gonna mention by name, but a lot of pills can cause it, because you change the flora in the body... And i seem to be extremely sensitive to that. Wich is crap...
So, thanks to all that shit, and maybe there is more under the surface, even i dont know, but all this crap with my body, it makes me go uuuuuuuuuuuup and dooooooooooooooown and uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuup and dooooown in my mood, and im sorry for you people that has to be around me, i cant help it..
Im sorry!
Emotional eating... YumYum!
I must say that emotional eating is something that has deep roots in me and my character, and i think im pretty powerless to it. Ok, i dont meen that im a slave to it, i can pretend like i dont feel like eating that chocolate bar, or that Bag of maltezers and so on, and the pretending works pretty good, until it doesnt..
I wouldnt say that im sooo depressed or something, its not because of depression im eating.. Cause im not depressed, of course i would eat treats if i was depressed aswell ;)
But i know how my Emotional-Eating-Schedule looks more or less, if the chocolate devil can decide, Maybe you can recognize yourself in some one of these?
There is 2 feelings when im not eating that much crap:
- When im angry :
Well, when im angry i have a tendency to "starve" myself, i meen, if im really pissed, it doesnt matter if im hungry or what ever. I will just not eat, its not allways because i have done something wrong and need to be "punished", it can also be because of someone else, that im so angry on that i will rather starve myself than give "you" right. Sounds silly, i know, but its just there...
- When im happy:
Well, i wouldnt say that im not eating when im happy, but when im happy i rather take a fruit, or a sandwich, to stop hunger, and thats it. Because when your happy your body allready has the endorfines and so, so "suplimental happyness" is not necessary.
Then there is the other ones:
- When im stressed:
Then i have a tendency to eat...junk... Well when im stressed i dont do it on "purpous" or what to call it, i just grab the quickest i can and eat and then thats it. Not healthy, because i might eat lets say a piece of chocolate or so, and for the rest not much at all until really late in the evening. Not so healthy he?
- When im sad: Hmm sad or depressed is not the exact therm im looking for, im not that often really sad or so, but i meen, when you have something that brings you down, big or small, then its easy to "threat" your sadness with some chocolate, or cookies, or what so ever.. And i can eat alot.
I know i do it, but not for sure at exactly that moment. I have periods when im not feeling at all that im stressed, sad, angry or what ever, but the eating is still there. I have sometimes periods when im just feeling "--------------------------------------" in my brain, no feelings, but under that state of mind, there is allways something, even if you cant translate it into your language, you allways feel something, right?
What im trying to say is: It doesnt matter if you or anyone else tries to point the finger and say: Hoooola, you eat alot now he?" It will still be periods when im eating more and also when im eating less. Thats my life..
Well, i make myself sound like one of the most unhealthiest persons there is, but to be honest, if we have it at home i do prefere vegetables with some "dipp", or a warm cup of tea..
But the matter of fact, im also doing quite alot. My job is not a "sitting and staring on a screen" job, i work with cleaning around 30-35 hours a week. After that i also ride 20-25 horses a week, and as a plus sometimes i go for a walk, or take a run. Or do sit ups and push ups and so on.
Now this has been a long one, and i dont know if its that interesting for you to read, but it was nice writing about it. Haha :)
Good night folks!
Humor pâ morgonkvisten!
Hahaha this is how i feel right now :
Childish, Bored and bleeeeeh!
This stupid finger, is making me go crazy. It doesnt hurt that much, but the fact that im not allowed to do a shit...
Not fun at all... Now im gonna go pick up some wall paper and then clean a bit i guess. WOHO!!
Everything is possible.
Im not gonna say what i have done today. Just that it was more or less possible also with 2 fingers that cant be moved. Yep.
Today i went to a store and bought a writing "book". I have started to write a "cookbook for dummies" for my boyfriend. So yeah, it keeps me a little bit busy, but only until i get cramp in the hand and elbow from writing...
Well, the new pills i started with yesterday seem to be pretty powerful, especially in combination of the other ones; Redomex 25... First i felt like i needed to pie, so i think i went to the toilet maybe 3 times during a period of 30 min? And for every time i went up, i felt more and more dizzy, and almost drunk.
Joren wanted to shut the tv off, but i asked him to leave it on because i didnt feel enough sleepy, but just maybe 5 minites later, i asked him to turn it off, and then i fell asleep right away... so yeah, powerfull indeed.
Im thinking of exept from just keeping diary, that i might also start writing about certain subjects, like "future dreams", and this and that, but then i need to keep new subjects coming, and thats the difficult part. Its not difficult for me to write about anything, but to find shit to write about. So if you readers is thinking of certain subjects that you would like me to write about, just let me know! Post it in an coment or what ever.
Now i will search for fun shit at youtube or so...
Here you go: Do you see the crack??
Broken finger = Restless Anna
Yepp, you read right, Its broken!
Went to work this morning, with the intentions to work the pain away but that wasnt possible..
Worked for about 45 min, after that i called the doctor to make an appointment.
After that, home, rest for 1 hour, then leave for the doctor. The doctor sends me to the hospital for xrays. Btw, the doctor got a bit confused about the reumatologist im going to, but ill come back to that later..
Went to the hospital, took the pictures, and yepp, a fracture between the small joints on the finger itself.
Down to the emergency to fix it, and i think we all know how it is in the emergency... Waiting, waiting and WAITING! Then someone comes and you get big hopes that this might go pretty quick anyway, but they just show you to another waiting room. Same procedure again, then in to a room, where i speak with a doctor, "But the orthopedist surgeon will be here in 2 minutes"...(2x15 min) It was obviously so that the fracture goes in to one of the joints but it was not nessecary to operate, thank god...
So, no work for 2 weeks, and for sure no riding for 1 week, maybe more, i have to feel it myself, but it will take 3-4 weeks for the shit to be heeled.
And lets say it like this : Going from working 36 hours a week with cleaning Plus riding around 20-25 horses a week, to nothing, is pretty shit... And it makes me nervous just to think about it.... :(
Back to the thing with my reumatholigist.. He had called my housedoctor about my fibromyalgi, and said that he is giving me Magnesium, vitamine D, something in the evening to sleep, and send me to a fysiotherapist for relaxation exercises.... Hmmmmmmm what he has done is give me magnesium and antidepressives and say : Bye, see you in 4 month"... So now my house doctor prescribed more magnesium, vitamine D, some muscle relaxating pill for sleeping, and a note for the fysiotherapist... Why cant anyone just do their job right from the beginning??
Now im gonna take a pill and lay down in bed, for next episode of "The clan".
Good night!
